Letting Go of Control—The Hardest (and Most Liberating) Lesson

Have you ever been in a plant medicine ceremony where the more you tried to control the experience, the worse it got? Maybe you were gripping onto reality for dear life, trying to make sense of what was happening, only to get dragged deeper into the unknown.

And then—somewhere between surrender and exhaustion—you finally let go.

And in that moment, everything shifted.

That’s the thing about these deep medicine experiences. They’re not about “doing the work” or “fixing” yourself. They’re about showing up, being with what is, and—most of all—learning to let go.

Because control? It’s an illusion.

We live in a world obsessed with structure, certainty, and having a plan. We track everything—our steps, our sleep, our mood. We think if we can just do the right things, we’ll be safe from suffering. But history, spiritual traditions, and our own lives remind us otherwise.

• The Mayans spoke of Maya, the grand illusion, mistaking the temporary for the eternal.

• Hinduism teaches us about Lila, the cosmic play of existence—nothing is fixed, everything is unfolding.

• In Buddhism, suffering is tied to attachment—to trying to hold onto what was or force what will be.

And yet, here we are, still trying to micromanage the mystery of being human.

Plant medicine has a way of humbling you real fast in that department. If you’ve ever been in a tough ceremony, you know—the more you resist, the harder it gets.

The medicine doesn’t care about your schedule, your five-year plan, or your attempts to analyze your way out of discomfort. It teaches through experience.

Through contrast.

Through death and rebirth—over and over again.

And honestly? That’s life.

Healing isn’t about getting to a place where nothing ever shakes you.

It’s about having the tools to meet whatever comes.

Microdosing is one of those tools.

It doesn’t hand you the answers, but it helps loosen the grip. It invites you into presence. It nudges you toward curiosity instead of control, expansion instead of contraction.

Because the truth is, you don’t need to have it all figured out.
You never did. And thank God for that.

Something to sit with.

— Cordi